Just thought that these shirts I found selling online are nice. Especially the 'bleeding heart', definitely a good conversation starter.
I'm really blessed beyond reason - I saw God (more on that in a later writing), and so far, there hasn't been any negative response from ANYONE about anything in work - you can attribute it to a really solid product, but I prefer to say that it's the favor of God. But yes, simply amazing. I could just fall in love with work and have an all day romance! Haha!
A nice, wise lady friend told me that I should date when I'm in the - prime - pink of my youth - time, and don't waste it, because the years will just pass by quickly. I really appreciated that, although we had just met - I felt that we could communicate on a deep level, which is rare for me. I do remain skeptical about the people I meet and seldom take them for face value. Well, how can I put it into words that for me, whilst otherwise I would have thoroughly enjoyed dating - me being me, dating having the thrills of new experiences and the pleasure of meeting new individuals from whom, I can analyse stuff and learn something from, the fun-ness of it... But now that I am fully 'into' what God has for me and not wavering from the possibility that the best one might not be the best one, just accepting it firmly, without hesitation and without doubt, the excitement of dating seems random and purposeless to me.
But... how to tell her?
I wasn't intent on scaring my new friend off by going into rounds of 'God told me this and that' 'my destiny' 'God's WIL FOR MY LIFE!!!', so I just mentioned that there was a guy I had my eye on, I've known him since I was 19. We aren't dating right now but remain as close friends, and we do meet each other quite frequently in The Church and other settings.
Hee.
At the end, she said, You have to tell him! (Now why is this phrase so familiar.)
Yes, I know I have to.
But I don't want to?
She said, Just get an answer from him! Don't hold on for too long for I've seen many girls that way. Sometimes all you need to move on in life is a 'YES' or 'NO' answer.
On the way home yesterday, I kept thinking about that. She was right. At a later stage, I will need to know, to hear a yes or no.
Sometimes things ARE that simple.
So.
It all started with moisturizer.
Or rather, a brand of moisturizer. Specifically, Jergens' original with cherry-almond scent.
I was feeling miffed after a certain someone in Captain Zero's past escapades showed up. Well, not literally - as to him, she had always been a part of his life. Anyways, the point was that - if you were to choose your own happiness but there was the need to sacrifice something along with it, would you?
Initially I was ok about it (the part where Zero sacrificed us - our friendship- for the one true happiness in life) but later on, negative emotions like hurt, sadness, narrowing of eyes came to reflect on my visage.
Apparently, spiritedly has come to realise that she has envisioned that now that hers' and Zero's friendship has cemented into a certain stage, she thinks that he will be in her life, forever, sharing nice memories of watching movies, shopping in vivocity, and other friendly stuff. Forever - or at least the next ten years.
So she told him so, in a stuttering way, outside cathay. (Why does it strangely rhyme?)
And we mentioned the moisturizer... drat that Jergens.
The moisturizer being a certain obscure brand that spiritedly used, liked, and trusted. And wanted to buy again as The Office was drying out her fingers. Unbeknownst to her, that certain someone also liked to use the exact same moisturizer with the cherry almond scent.
Of all the moisturizers, she had to use my brand, spiritedly thought. But it's ok, I will find another one that I will like.
After sampling many other brands like Dove, Nivea, Neutrogena, Lux... etc!! She bought the same one in the end. But Zero thought that it was thoughtful of her not to smell like a certain someone, lest it brought back memories.
And all was well!
Many realizations these days...
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