Tuesday, October 31, 2006

Opportunity to change your bank account.

The end of 06 is coming and it's been a great two months for me. I've not yet reached the tipping point to easily become a millionaire but the hard work I've put in since last year has borne fruit. Now, easily I find a life of ease and as my time expands, the ability to do many things I once could not.

Mingling with the entrupreneurs-to-be and the -already also makes me realise one thing: That I am also in this league. It is so important to find a mentor before you can become one. And then later, hopefully train another. I've had good mentors, uncles, my Rich Dad, Manager, etc who find it a pleasure to spend time answering my questions and guiding me along. Maybe I'm blessed that way,but also, I was looking for them. I've seen a few people saying "If only I've started when I was your age, I would have become really rich now." To change a society, educate lives. And I can go where no pastor can go: To touch and change the lives of successful businessmen like myself, if I am successful too. Was having fun writing some goals that I want to achieve by December 2006. It seems so soon that writing the bigger ones would make me demoralized. Still, goals are a big part of how or what we want to achieve in life.

Goals are to people what biz plan is to businessmen.

Was sharing with Penelope yesterday that any goal can be 'spiritual' or 'materialistic'. If I want to earn a million bucks, who is going to say anything if I give half of it away? Money gives us freedom if we do not have to work for it. For some people, even if they are faithful to the company, working years, slogging day and night - will they see a doubling of their income? No... perhaps never. That is why I like sales. You have the opportunity to change your bank account if you are hardworking. Hard work never killed anyone!

I've learnt that it's quite easy to do sales if you partner with the right company and product. I've seen people work so hard for a miserly sum when they could do the same amount of work and earn way better selling another type of thing. Some products work well in direct sales, others are suited for retail. Selling things can be fun if you like it and have a bit of thick skin in asking people if they want it.

Today's workers really need multiple sources of income if they want to survive. I'm glad I can bank on my diverse talents. Besides being in a job that pays well, I can also have the time to teach part time with a really decent sum. Plus, I can join any one of those health products out there (But I will join the best one) as I'm slim and actually eat really healthy foods. So I'm a bit of expert in that. I can also write, and design, so that also attributes to some on-off projects which I do enjoy doing for free most of the time. I'm starting to invest in things with good returns instead of always spending on consumer goods so that I can get a good value for my hard work and money next time.

I hope that I can share with others how to change their lives.

Friday, October 27, 2006

Wisecracks about men, women, and all that

A little light humor from me while trawling the web.

Enjoy a good Friday laugh for a great weekend!

I asked my wife if she'd love me when I was old and useless. She said, "Of course I do"
- Rodney Dangerfield

Marriage is when a man and woman become as one;
the trouble starts when they try to decide which one.

Cats do what they want, when they want.
They rarely listen to you.
They're totally unpredictable.
They whine when they are not happy.
When you want to play they want to be left alone.
When you want to be alone, they want to play.
They expect you to cater to their every whim.
They're moody.
They leave their hair everywhere.
They drive you nuts.

Conclusion: Cats are little, tiny women in cheap fur coats.

My wife says I never listen to her.
At least I think that's what she said.

There were 11 people hanging on to a rope that came down from a helicopter. Ten were men and one woman. They all decided that one person should get off because if they didn’t, the rope would break and everyone would die. No one could decide who should go. Finally the woman gave a really touching speech on how she would give up her life to save the others, because women were used to giving up things for their husbands and children and giving in to men. All of the men started clapping.

My husband bought me a mood ring the other day. When I'm in a good mood it turns green. When I'm in a bad mood, it leaves a red mark on his forehead.

Then there was a man who said, "I never knew what real happiness was until I got married; and then it was too late."

The secret of a happy marriage remains a secret.

My wife dresses to kill. She cooks the same way.

One day, Adam sat outside the Garden of Eden shortly after eating the apple, and wondered about men and women. So looking up to the heavens he says, "Excuse me God, can I ask you a few questions?"
God replied, "Go on Adam, but be quick. I have a world to create."
So Adam says," When you created Eve, why did You make her body so curvy and tender unlike mine?"
"I did that, Adam, so that you could love her."
"Oh, well then, why did You give her long, shiny, beautiful hair, and not me?"
"I did that Adam so that you could love her."
"Oh, well then, why did You make her so stupid? Certainly not so that I could love her?" "Well Adam, No. I did that so that she could love you."

Man: Haven't I seen you someplace before?
Woman: Yes, that's why I don't go there anymore.

Man: Is this seat empty?
Woman: Yes, and this one will be if you sit down.

Man: Your place or mine?
Woman: Both. You go to yours, and I'll go to mine.

Man: So, what do you do for a living?
Woman: I'm a female impersonator.

Man: Hey baby, what's your sign?
Woman: Do not enter.

Man: How do you like your eggs in the morning?
Woman: Unfertilized.

Man: Your body is like a temple.
Woman: Sorry, there are no services today.

Man: I would go to the end of the world for you.
Woman: But would you stay there?

Man: If I could see you naked, I'd die happy.
Woman: If I saw you naked, I'd probably die laughing.

A friend asked a gentleman how it is that he never married?
Replied the gentleman, "Well, I guess I just never met the right woman. I guess that I have been looking for the perfect girl."
"Oh, come on now," said the friend, "Surely you have met at least one girl that you wanted to marry."
"Yes, there was a girl, once. I guess she was the one perfect girl - the only perfect girl I really ever met. She was just the right everything. I really mean that she was the perfect girl for me." replied the gent.
"Well, why didn't you marry her," asked his friend.
The gent replied, "She was looking for the perfect man."

How Dogs and Men Are the Same
Both take up too much space on the bed.
Both have irrational fears about vacuum cleaning.
Both are threatened by their own kind.
Both like to chew wood.
Both mark their territory.
Both are bad at asking you questions.
Neither tells you what's bothering them.
Both tend to smell riper with age.
The smaller ones tend to be more nervous.
Both have an inordinate fascination with women's crotches.
Neither does any dishes.
Both fart shamelessly.
Neither of them notice when you get your hair cut.
Both like dominance games.
Both are suspicious of the postman.
Neither knows how to talk on the telephone.
Neither understands what you see in cats.

Monday, October 23, 2006

The Dilemma

Just wondering...
How come the hope we have is short lived when faced with grim reality?
Why some christians don't believe God will heal?
And also not speak life into their circumstances but condemn it already by their demoralised words...
Why is this world so full of entertainment that does not glorify God?
And all of us thinks its great to keep watching the movies and listening to songs, once wholesome now with very dubious themes.
Even what we eat has changed. The decadence of this world, the westernisation of places we once loved. Food, a staple - should be a healthy staple. I need more balanced choices please. How come we have more and more choices but no better alternatives. Why do we lust for the latest technology when ours is still working fine? I only changed my mobile phone when my old one's hearing device was wonky and I couldn't store any more contacts. Yet it seems frivolous, even snobbish, to some for me, a youngster, to have such a 'good' and expensive looking phone. Oh? This is actually the second phone I ever bought in my lifetime - I have a good Daddy who blesses me with more than enough Nokias the past years. So considering that I've saved quite a lot these past years... ...
My point is, I think advertisements and the media play too huge a part in our lives. Why are we all hyped up about the latest movie, the newest techonology, the newly released single by some wannabe popstar with a glam mug but less than appealing vocals... the new perfume, or some skincare product hawked by some movie star. Is it really that good? Are we buying it because we like the product and it works or is it more bang and less buck?

The Dilemma of our times is not that we are indecisive.
It's that we have TOO MANY choices.

And in relationships as well. Once upon our parents' time they practically married the first or second boy that asked them out. The generation before that, even better. They only got to see their other half on the wedding day itself, in most marriages. So you inevitably end up with someone taller or thinner than you yuck. Now, we are spoilt for choices. It is not uncommon to hear of several ex-boyfriends (or several failed relationships) before marriage.

We can choose our partner from our workplace, church, relatives, social groups, if all else fails there is still the internet. bigchurch.com , sdu.com , friendfinder... Yet if this theory of 'having more choices is better' works out, how come our world sees more divorces, more affairs, more broken families and children getting depressed. One can argue that choice spoils us.

Even something so simple as choosing a mobile phone. There are 6 brands of pda touchscreen phones with different functions for different usage and operating systems. Inevitably, once we made that choice, we don't feel as if it's the BEST choice. Just a better choice out of the many, many choices we can otherwise make. Thus, the sense of insceurity - That others will say, why didn't you buy X ... or Y? And then you have to make a stand. The same goes for shopping for groceries, buying hairdye - there are at least 5 different brands to choose from. Choice spoils us, it makes us critical of other people's choices and we are often unsure that we have chosen the best.

That is why a good, loving God gave us ONLY two choices. Black or white, Truth or Lies. Follow me and be saved. Or choose not, and the option is death. We have to choose. We have a choice. Not choosing anything means you inevitably lose out in the game of life. The dilemma of the day is to choose something worthwhile.

Man, I should be a sociologist... ...

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

One minute millionaire book

I want Lindt's cointreau chocolates. And some time to myself to laze at home.
Why choose to be sad when you can be happy? Why choose to be a victim of the circumstances when you can be a victor in every way. Some people like to push their unhappiness, work stressors, complaints to other people - more often than not it's the ones you are supposed to cherish. What you think is what you will become. I often wonder why some people complain so much. The food takes too long to come, the weather is not to their exact liking, blah blah. If you complain too much you will look old. Man... collagen implants anyone? Then again they do not realise how grating their voice sounds when complaining over this and that. Nuff said, I will take time to think of a positive daily affirmation for myself. I want a nice mid sized house with grass for rabbits and maybe cats and whippets. I want to breathe fresh air daily and eat organic whenever affordable. I want some nice dresses and bags and tech accessories. I want personalised stuff. Yesssss...

Words transform. Any situation - use your mouth to speak a blessing or a curse, a healing or an acceptance of sickness, bring joy or insult. You choose. I've chosen.

So here's a little precious, my genius list.


What activities give me satisfaction?
What excites me about my life?
What is my secret ambition?
What are my hobbies?

What do I get complimented on?
Where have I excelled in the past?
Where have I been successful?
What are some of my strengths?

What would I do if I were wealthy?
What do I stand for?
What won't I stand for?
What would I risk my life for?

What is my unique mission in life?
What does God want me to do?
What are my unique opportunities?
Where can I make a difference?

Do I have what it takes (to be a millionaire?) Do you?

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

My first investment and good service

I'm a forex investor! Haha.
I invested $XXX to buy Iraqi dinar (check out www.mydinar.net )

If we as christians believe that 'Babylon' will rise up again as a world superpower, plus the location of old Babylon should be the same as the new one (some preachers and scholars say), then, let's put our money where we believe! Well, I'm not that high a risk taker so I only invested $XXX (In fact my new bag costs more than that, oops.) The most if it's worthless I can go Jerusalem and buy a magic carpet.

But if each dinar reaches $1 USD I shall be very riche indeedy. =) hee.

I aim to invest almost everything that comes into the bank.

Actually I'd rather spend most of it but wahla... should save some for rainy days.

Was thinking about good service - my darling mentioned that I am such a sucker for good service. Well it's true. Maybe because I too provide good, efficient, friendly service to my clients. Efficient in the very least. But some restaurants here in Singapore are bad. Very bad. So bad that I think they should hire 'mystery diners' to solve their problem. Granted, service staff are hard to find and sometimes it's the internal training problem. But even if you have good food and lousy service, I'd rather eat at one with mediocre food and excellent service.

So here are my gourmet GEMs picks of the season. Make your date a happy and meaningful experience by going to these places!

Wheelock Place

1. Sun with Moon restaurant at Wheelock Place - Japanese food - I called in advance for reservation and they immediately ushered me to a small cosy wonderful table. Even though the table was situated far-off, every wave of the hand was answered promptly, staff were friendly, it was the most pleasant dinner experience ever...

2. NYDC Wheelock - Friendly service staff, I could say over enthusiatic! One friend complained her pasta was slightly dry, not expecting them to give her a totally new one! They kept refilling our glasses before it was half empty and although it was full house, they had enough staff to keep all happy. Wonderful experience!

3. Sakae, Wheelock - Called in advance on a Friday evening where the queue was 20-odd. Felt like a princess when the manager granted my request and we were ushered in to a nice seat. Food was prompt and the manager is a really nice lady!

Maybe the whole Wheelock is well trained in service!

Excellent service elsewhere:

Ichiban Boshi at Esplanade and Novena Square
Sixth Ave 'zhi char stall'

Bad, bad bad service elsewhere:

Sakae at Marina Square - Waited for the soup so long (it's self-cook soup so they only needed to prepare the ingredients) that we just paid and left. Manager pretended he was busy and requests went unnoticed many times.

Cedele Bakery Depot at Suntec - Rude waiters who knew nothing about their pastries (not even how to pronounce raspberry pistachio) and grumpy, kept talking loudy to themselves

Cedele at Raffles City - Kept announcing they were closing like 30minutes in advance as though they couldn't wait to get rid of us. Although the Cedele at Republic Plaza was terrific.

Ok. Seems like I go to many restaurants.

Thursday, October 12, 2006

In dreams

If your heart is like my heart, then give me your hand. -John Wesley.
Some days are darker than the rest.
It's hard not to be so affected. I get affected easily by surroundings, by the haze. Makes me feel so 'heaty' inside, tons of water still does not quench the feeling of wanting to be in airconditioned atmospheres all the time - the one time where I prefer aircon to sunlight outside.
Had a disturbing dream - almost a nightmare two nights ago. Strangely I only remember one scene - although the rest of them is stuck near the back of my mind, playfully showing me snatches here and there but not exactly how, causing me to wonder if my memory of the dream was made up or was it really there...?
A chill went down my spine however, as I realised I was freed from this sort of dreams for years. Well truth be told I was not as frightened or remember it as poignantly as I had for previous ones. But the nuances are the same. Running away from something again. It's always running and running and I hate running. It's hard to pinpoint people with a soul like mine because sometimes they don't even know it themselves. I only realised it in the last few years but I've always known since I was a kid that I thought differently from other kids. Not that it's supered intelligent thinking, or even something to be proud of; no. It's a kind of unexplainable soulful, nonconventional thinking that just causes us to view the world in a different light. Some psychologists have a word for it - I forgot the term...But it's just used to describe people with an 'enlightened' sense of thinking, they they are able to connect within themselves - and come up with deep theories like Stephen Hawking's - or if they are inclined artistically - like John Wesley, cofounder of the Methodist movement. Every religion (except mine, perhaps) has an explanation for these souls. Buddhism calls them enlightened beings, with a boddisathvic (if there is that word) state of mind, born like this. New age calls them psychic, people with 'auras', heightened sense of being etc. I'm not into those spooky stuff but there are a couple of instances I sensed deeply certain things and insisted I was right and it turned out so.
Anyways, I never embraced this side of me, I just wanted to be like other normal people. Sort of like X-men. But I am slowly opening up to the fact that there are others in my midst who feel this deep sense of loneliness that no one else can ever understand them too. In fact, we don't want to understand ourselves, we will go crazy if we do! So, I'm not sure why I am like that but I believe someday my 'powers' will come forth to help me in some way, meanwhile, I just express myself through doing everyday things. I hope that my disturbing dreams are lessened though.
When the cold of winter comes
Starless night will cover day
In the veiling of the sun
We will walk in bitter rain
But in dreams
I can hear your name
And in dreams
We will meet again
When the seas and mountains fall
And we come to end of days
In the dark I hear a call
Calling me there
I will go there
And back again
-Taken from Lord of the Rings.

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

Exchange rate

A fair exchange.

I think in this life, we are constantly exchanging things for something else that we want. Think barter trade. Think commerce and other biz terms, but to put it in a straightforward manner, we just like to exchange what we already have for the things we want. Sometimes, we also exchange things for things we don't want, not realising the importance of the exchange.

Like sometimes when I am unhappy, I do things because of my sadness not knowing that I am causing another person to be unhappy, thus spreading the unhappiness around, doubling it, making it worse. Not a good rate of exchange. Most workers exchange time and their skills for money, and exchange money for a better life, for things that sustain and propel them to greater heights, for less stress, for easier transport. Not to say that we have to spend each and every hour of our time doing something productive, that will lead to health problems that eventually we have to spend more time and effort doing something about it.

Exchange. If we view things we do as exchanges, some having greater impact than others, then it is wise not to attach emotional value to the things we do. After all, I have heard of people wanting to change job/scope/company but they slog on year after year. Why? Because of the comfort zone, their friendly colleagues, they have gotten used to wearing such and doing such that they are reluctant to leave even though they want to. I'm not discounting the importance or such deep relationships and memories, but this can be a factor that handicaps us in life. I respect those expats who can just relocate with a small suitcase of clothes and start all over again with almost nothing, no belongings, no things they are clinging to from another world. For me, I tend to be sentimental - It was with great reluctance that I parted with my Stussy bag I used to carry in secondary school during spring clean last 2 months. It has many memories for me. I still keep letters from friends, old christmas cards and etc. I can't relocate without bringing those things. But job wise for me, I think I can safely say that if a better opportunity comes along (which is very rare considering my position now) the exchange factor will be one of commerce for me.


That aside, there are 'must-dos' in every culture, specifically mine. My darling is irritated at me for calling some of his mannerisms 'low class' once in a while. It's not purposely meant to hurt... And I don't think I'm very 'high class' either but yeah, some things are must-dos, and others are 'boo-boos'. I've drawn up some fun rules for my life for myself to fulfill in my specific culture, here!

Must-dos for spiritedly
1.Remember all my covenantal friends birthdays!Wish them, pray for them, buy them a small token of appreciation! Makes everyone happy, and a small $5 gift is inexpensive when you see the look on the person's face that you remembered their birthdays.

2.I've received treats from managers and rich ones and people who love me enough to feed me, so many times that I actually save quite a lot on food. So, I will treat people to Starbucks or any little dessert, or a meal, when we meet.

3.Send flowers for any housewarming, office opening, new colleague, old colleague coming back that sort of thing. Once again inexpensive (if you go to the right places) and fun to give plus flowers are always appreciated. Next time a bottle of wine when I know how to choose them.

4. Set fun things that enable me to save money and actually spend on the things I really want. My rules are: I'm only going to buy one pair of jeans in a year. I don't really wear jeans so this rule is necessary. So I can get more dresses! Also health rule: Eat char kway teow twice a year only (adapted from Walt's code), drink fresh fruit juice whenever possible and just make healthier food options. Having 'no-lunch lunch' actually destresses my mind because I don't have to push and shove with the lunch crowd and queue and wait for seats, plus, I have time to relax in the office, catch up on admin (it's more fun to do it alone, silently) and sms people I love.

5.Always introduce myself to new people and make light banter with them.

6.Don't make shopping my favorite pasttime. So many of us just hang at shopping malls because it's convienient, non sweaty, and... we end up shopping which is not beneficial to any relationship! Let us go to parks, take long walks by beaches, chill out at quiet cafes, bookshops, and keep the romance alive. Movies are ok maybe once a fortnight for me.

7.Make yourself happy. Many people, myself included are too hard on ourselves. We make ourselves sad by our unrealised expectations, of cramming too many things in one day and not fulfilling all our agenda, of making plans and then having to cancel because of being overbooked then feel so guilty for disappointing others and ourselves. Well, the nervousness and tension only spills over. Relax and know that in one year's time you won't even remember what happened yesterday. I always give myself small treats when I've accomplished small tasks, and of course big treats for big tasks! Maybe a trip to JB or Batam will do us good, or a small little diamond accessory - even cases for handphones, a new Muji notebook, getting your favorite drink on the way to work. Simple things to keep life balanced and cheery!

8.Thank those who have gone out of their way 'beyond the call of duty' to help you in certain ways. Maybe those who have chaufeurred you without complain, give them a box of chocolates to show you care for their petrol costs. Those who have organized things, treat them to a refreshing drink. And those who have been your punching bag, your listening ear, your tireless support that have made you a success today, never fail to be that punching bag to some other person who will need you. Let's never be selfish with our time or resources, but don't just take and take, it's time to take turns to be giving too. I've learnt a lot, one year in The Office, and over the weekend I bought Manager a plush retro Mickey - she loves the Disney character. It's big, like a one year old baby, and able to sit down! I put it on her chair. When she realised it was for her she couldn't stop beaming and asked me why I gave that... And even talked to it, asking it to guard her seat as she went out for lunch. =) It costs a small amount but the value of an unexpected 'thanks for guiding me this one year', priceless!

I have more thoughts on this ( I realised mine is all related to treating and thanking)... actually when I was almost penniless, I thought hard about the facts of life and I vowed to make it up to all those people one day. My parents who brought me up, I wish I can buy an organic farm for them to happily live amongst the nature to a ripe old age. My friends who were there during the hard times, I want to treat them to double what they have so freely given. For God who is always there, I want to give and give to the pastors, to build the building, to be a vessel of blessing. I used to be quite selfish - or really, it's bo chup. And now, I actually still am quite nonchalant about the things happening in others' lives, etc. It's time to move out of that, as I approach another year! Goodbye old habits, I've learnt to be a better person!

Thursday, October 05, 2006


Food for thought. Read a quote attributed to Albert Eintstein:

There are two ways to live your life -one as though nothing is a miracle, the other is as though everything is a miracle.

Cool. Hum I must be more balanced in my purchases. Buy more skincare and wellness products to even out my huge consumption of spiritedly stuff - obscure knickknacks that junk up my room, clothes, bag, small things... I have soooo many things to sell at the flea mart.

I wonder why women love shopping so much. I only shop when I have things to buy. Then again, the things on my list are so many that I can't possibly finish buying... well, I can, but it doesn't give me a sense of satisfaction anyways.

Was explaining IDENTITY to my girls the other day. Tried to draw it out - One's identity is shaped by the Ego, or ID as learnt in psychoanlysis with Freud and the big boys, which leads to your psyche - heart issues, better known as psychology. For me I feel personality and character is not one and the same, though in descriptive writing one would be hard pressed to use adjectives to bring out the differences. And, of course the all important outlook - appearance, what you choose to wear sort of determines your behavior. Really! Somehow the vibe created is not that simple especially if you are a complex creature, you will never ever find something to wear that is 100% YOU. Sure, I like asymetric, designer stuff with bold prints and grafitti style tees. But I also like fragile, white, almost transluscent flowy loose dresses and blouses as well as sharp, chic stuff. More importantly it has to have utility - who designed girls trousers without pockets is really... sigh. Why, the extra padding makes the hips look bigger? Now that I have short(er) hair I want to be more bold and daring. At least I don't look that unkempt now though I still don't comb my hair.

I think that one day I'd just be my own person. Finally find out the things I want to do, do them, make enough money to last a long,long time, and then go somewhere where the air is fresh, organic food is the norm, where I can eat bread and cheese all day without any hype about weight loss, unhealthy fads, or have the urge to go shopping daily just to beat the boredom.

Oh and I ordered my favorite chocolate eclairs for the BBQ. Yumyum.

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

Anyone interested in these pink furry things? $6 bucks at Golden Mile

Colin bought the 'Dale' for me... sitting amidst the nice stuff

One Ed Hardy tee...The other in the wash

Nice bag, nice furry slipper, nice rug. Recent purchases from China Square and Golden Mile.

Things that make me happy

Went on a little phototaking as I'm waiting for sis to come out of the shower. Realised I bought many things this and last week - Went to JB bought 2 Ed Hardy tees, wooden sandals to work, and some small items. Oh, plus three birthday gifts - I always seem to go broke around this time of the month!

The flea mart at China Square sold nice stuff. Got a handmade granny's bag and rug from an authentic granny. Carried it today. I think girls need to pamper themselves once in a while. Go for a manicure, relax with a good book or magazine, some haircut, buy a dress!

Sometimes I feel kinda sickky these days. It should be the haze plus that time of the month. My whole body feels like colliding inside. I'm energetic enough to want to walk around malls, but also there is the need to sit down and have water or something to drink once in a while. I think boyfriends who want to keep their girlfriends, and want the relationship to last should be kinder and less selfish during these times. It's not too much to ask. After all, she has sacrificed much for you also just by being with you and tolerating your nonsense (haha.), just give her some peace and quiet and don't try to rationalise your actions. I think I'm on the verge of giving up looking for support from this area. Find it within myself? Maybe. But I'm just puzzled how come everything is going well but the person seems to make it worse. And I'm scared of people raising their voices at me and getting frustrated, angry at my sickky feeling. It's not my fault that I am weak. Please don't make it worse.

With compliments from Singtel - $45 worth of mooncakes from Raffles The Plaza. Superb!

Monday, October 02, 2006

Reality shows and the harsh reality of life...

Remember that what is hard to endure will be sweet to recall.

I've been thinking about the people I meet recently and the ones whose lot in life seems like it will never be good. There is still the great divide between poly and uni students - or those that have a degree compared to a diploma. On one hand I'm glad I belong to the other, 'better' side, that I don't have to search that hard for a 2K and above paying job. Meanwhile, not everyone has the chance to get a degree, so, being judged on a piece of paper seems rather harsh. Watching those reality shows really grips my mind, too. Seeing people who obviously cannot make it in dance/singing/acting whichever show they take part in, yet - either being really bigheaded and thinking they are an undiscovered star or, just another one out for fame really irks me. It's like modelling - some industries need certain KEY factors that some people have naturally - a talent, an aptitude, height, or good looks... and if you can't make it, why not try something else that suits you better instead of trying and trying again. I guess that's another message those reality shows try to give.

I'm glad I know what I do better so I don't have delusional dreams - sure, I have a bit of natural ability for arts, including painting, singing and dancing more so than the average person, but definitely not enough to 'make it' on the international screen. So, treat it as a hobby or something to do with your spare time. I like English but I don't like it that much to soak it up 24/7 or to constantly teach others about their poor grammar, so I take up a part time teaching assignment that brings in pretty good pocket money.

I usually do my manicures at Bugis Village - the cramped up, open-air place to find cheap clothes and sometimes nice accessories, although it's increasingly coming from places like Thailand and HongKong, but sometimes there are nice finds like factory rejects Abercrombie and Fitch at the airconditioned second level or nice dresses for a small bargain of what you'd find elsewhere in Far East type of shops. Being in a kind of chatty mood, I made conversation with a wide eyed, petite girl who was doing my nails in a dark plum color with dragonfly stickers. Turns out she was most probably older than me, married with 2 kids. I wondered how she could survive with the meagre pay and long working hours in the claustrophobic shop. I wondered even if they worked hard, whether their pay could hit $1K a month as the basic manicure was only $12. I added stickers and some special oil which made it to be around $20. Doing my nails there, the service was better than at other specialised manicure shops, yet it was half the price. I felt rather sorry for her as she shared that she started working after N levels and worked for 3 years as a manicurist. The other girl that I spoke to - at a pushcart where I made a 'skin' for my handphone, only studied to O levels and had tattoos on her fingers, shoulder blade and ankle. She looks pretty in a Jolin way, petite too and shy yet easygoing in the friendly, laidback way. I just wondered how they could get by. Standing by a pushcart would bore me to bits! Sometimes I wish there was a way to help those in our society. But sometimes the help is unwanted, and even not welcomed. I wonder how these people are going to survive, marry, and have kids. Already it's becoming so hard for us 'normal' people.